It was all disjointed, but I still felt good. I felt horny high. First we were at the front of the bus. His hand was pressed into my back as I waited for the door to open. Then we were in the back of the bus as the driver went right by my stop. I was looking into Matthew's eyes as he raised his hand to my face. I closed my eyes and I felt his knuckles as he slid the back of his hand along my cheek.
When I opened my eyes again I was sitting and he was looking down at me and the bus was empty, but still moving. For some reason I wasn't afraid that we would crash or anything. Then I was standing again and we were back at the front of the bus. I don't know if I was waiting for the door to open, but everyone was there again. The bus driver, Betts, who always sat in the front seat, and Matthew's father who was sitting outside in his expensive car.
The only thing different was that I don't think anyone saw us. In fact on one else was moving or even breathing as far as I can tell other than me and Matthew. And the two of us were looking at each other and getting closer every second. He was going to kiss me. I felt kinda afraid for a second because we were doing it on the bus where everyone would see us. I wasn't afraid of a kiss. I had been kissed before. Once. Two years ago. Matthew's face came closer. No one could really see us now. Did I remember how a kiss felt?
My eyes slowly opened as I realized that something was making a very bad and loud sound that was very close to my head. I half winced, now that I was more awake, as I recognized the sound as my alarm going off for the day. I stopped myself from throwing it across the room because it wrecked a perfectly good dream and at the most imperfect time too.
I reached over with one hand and turned it off before slowing pushing it off the table. It's strong, it could take it, I thought as I waited to hear it hit the floor. I just heard a dull flop sound instead. Damn. Something saved it.
Five days in and I'm starting to dream about him, I told myself as I rubbed a thumb over one of the skulls before I pulled the headphones over my ears to keep them warm before I reached for my iPod, that I had charged last night. I was a little early for the bus so I didn't look up as I scrolled through my library looking for the first song I wanted to hear for the day. I scrolled past a lot of songs and stopped for a moment over Nickel Back's S.E.X. for a moment longer than I should have. I picked a song one artist down and pushed my hands back in my coat, along with the iPad, to keep them warm as well while I waited for the bus to show up.
I looked up and down the street to see who else might show up for the ride. I was usually the only one at this stop, but once in a while, when their parents were running late, or they themselves slept late, someone else from school would keep me physical company until the bus showed up.
I tried to be friendly, but that was the only time I meet any of them and we weren't even in the same grade. So after a while we were just polite to each other whenever we happened to meet. I started to sing along to MJ's Thriller and looked around to see if any one was close enough to hear me singing. I didn't see anyone outside, but I did see the bus as it stopped two blocks back at the stop light.
I sang all the words to the song until the bus started to slow down as it came to a stop in front of me so I could get on. I just picked one of the few seats that were free, since I was one of the last kids that the bus had to pick up. The bus started to move before I got to the seat and stopped just as I got there. I was slammed into the seat from the sudden stop, which caused my headphones to get knocked off my ears. I turned in the seat that I fell into to look at the front of the bus to see why it had stopped as I fixed the headphones around my neck.
"Cutting it close there aren't you?" the driver asked the kid that now stepped onto the bus. I remembered him. His name was... Sean? I think it was Sean. He once said that his mom normally took him to school.
"Thanks for stopping," he told the driver before he walked further into the bus. He was looking around for a seat also when the bus started to move again.
"Hi Jason," he called out when he saw me. He even waved. I considered it odd, but since I remembered his name, I think, it wasn't that odd.
"Hi Sean," I said willing it to be his name as I smiled back at him.
"You remembered my name," he said when he stopped next to my seat.
"Well not many of us use this bus stop," I told him with a smaller smile. As he continued to stand next to me, holding on to the corner of my seat, the kid next to us was pinging away on his game. It felt a little odd, but I didn't want to be rude, so I just waited for him to move on, since I couldn't come up with anything to say at the moment.
"You don't mind if I sit behind of you, do you?" he asked as he pointed his finger to the seat right behind of me.
"No, of course not," I told him. Which was true. Why would I mind where he sat? When I turned to look at the seat he had pointed out, I saw something that caught my attention. I saw that someone's legs, which were covered in jeans, were up on the seat in the very back of the bus, like they were laying down. The girl next to them had her nose pressed slightly up against the glass as if she was looking for someone.
I gave Sean a last, small smile as I was turning back around. I counted to ten in my head to give him some time to say something before I went back to my music filled world. I half looked around as I slowly counted and saw that most of the kids had their nosies in a book or was copying work from someone else. My fingers were around my headphones when I got to five and as I hit ten Sean said something.
"I hear that you are going with Matthew Cole now," he said from very close to the back of my head. "I was just wondering if it was true," he quickly added on. The speed at which my answer raced through my mind was only stopped from being said out loud because I tasted how bitter my answer was when it reached my mouth.
"Why are you interested?" I asked him instead. Now I turned around and faced him. He didn't move from where he had his chin on the back of my seat.
"I saw your first?" He asked me? I think he was asking me. Maybe that was hope I heard instead.
"I don't know who saw me first. That," I stopped. "You like me?" I asked him a little quieter. The kid next to me continued to ping away, but I felt the eyes from the girl next to Sean, that I hadn't really looked at before, now on me, if not the two of us.
"Yeah," he told me. "I had a boyfriend before, so I couldn't go after you back then, but we broke up at the end of last semester," he explained.
"Why now?" I wanted to know and ask him.
"Why am I asking you now?" he asked me in turn.
"Yeah," I sent back at him.
"Well, I remembered how much I had liked you when we first meet, and considering that Matthew punched you, I didn't think that he had a chance. I almost missed the bus since I'm not use to catching it," he said with a somewhat sweet grin.
"But," we both said at the same time. "You go first," I told him since he had been talking first.
"I was going to say that I might have been wrong," he told me. "That's the gift he gave you isn't it?" he asked as he pointed to the headphones that were warm around my neck.
"They are just a birthday gift," I told him as stopped myself from touching it. "But," I said when he had a bit too much hope in his eyes. "He did ask me to date him," kind of, I added to myself. I flicked my eyes over to the girl who openly looked at the two of us now. If she was speaking, she would have been part of the conversation. The pings on my side had slowed down a bit, but he was still going.
"So am I too late to have you consider dating me?" he asked with his cute smile again. I had to think about, but not as long as he might have expected. He was nice, but I never really thought that much about him. Also it wouldn't be fair to Mathew to consider someone else when he asked me first.
"Sorry," I said. "I kinda want to sort out the Mathew thing first," I told him.
"Fair enough," he told me. "But if
it doesn't pan out. You can reach me through the school's gay registry," he informed me. The what?
"Hahaa," he laughed when he saw the look on my face. "AKA The Yaoi Club. I think your friend is there. I'm surprised you stayed under the radar for so long," he said as we stopped for the third time. I know that I still looked surprised and confused.
"Kim?" I asked out loud.
"Yeah?" someone said from the back of the bus, that was just four seats back really. The bus hasn't moved yet, so my voice filled most of the space easily. I bent over into the isle a bit and saw the feet come down off the seat, as I saw Kim raise her head up.
"Hi Jason," she waved before laying back down. "I'll talk to you later," she said before the bus started up again.
"Hahaha," Sean said as he sat back into his seat. "I'll let you get back to your music," he told me before I smiled at him and turned back around in my seat. "Not now Jessica," I heard him say behind my back. It must have been the girl that he was sitting next to. The pinging boy next to me increased the speed of his playing and I lifted my headphones back into place over my ears. I may have had time for two or three songs before we got to school, I thought as the song that was playing finished.
That got cut down to maybe two now as The PussyCat Dolls started singing Jai Ho. About half way through the song I started to hum along. I managed to forget a little about the conversation with Sean as I hummed along to the other two songs that played on our way to school. The bus is required to wait one minute if no one is at a bus stop that a student is suppose to be picked up from, so that made the ride a little longer. Two kids were late and almost missed the bus even with the extra minute.
We arrived at school with a few minutes to spear and got off in order of our seats. I was turning off my iPod as I walked down the hallway when someone held on to my shoulder. I turned around to see who it was, and walked right into them, or they walked right into me. I don't know which, but I do know that he kissed me as a result. I wouldn't mistake the feel and smell of this body for a girl's.
"Ok," he said a little quietly as he pulled back. He stepped back and I saw it was Sean as he waved his hand in front of my face. I lowered my headphones, thinking that he believed that I was still playing my music.
"I already turned off the music," I told him as I pulled them completely down to the base of my neck.
"Well I was just trying to tell you bye and that I hoped to hear from you soon, but you didn't hear me," he explained as he smiled and crossed his arms across his chest. He slightly blushed before and as he moved his thumb across his lips.
"Yeah, later," I said a bit too loudly as I turned my back to him and made my way to my first class.